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Sat, May 12, 2007

Planning, and Lack of

Posted at 9:36 pm MDT to Miscellaneous

Feeling a little down.

My current gig ends at the end of June. I don't know whether they will extend, or what the next gig will be. I would like to have a garden (or at least plant a few things in the yard), or set up my fishtank again, but I can't really justify starting any project around the house involving living things that would need ongoing care.

I keep getting reminders of old projects and hobbies.

Some reminders are because I'm still working my way through piles of stuff from the study: I just tossed out a bunch of old brochures I had printed up when I was trying to create Data-Raptors Associates as a network search service business. All that's really left of Data-Raptors is the website and my email address.

Other reminders are coming in from the outside world. I had a side business for a few years, Astral Trading Company, selling tarot cards and other items at science fiction conventions. Initially it was a partnership with my friend Nanette, but she dropped out due to lack of time after a couple of years. I still have a special event sales tax license, and some crates of Astral stuff down in the basement, though I haven't been to a science fiction convention (much less had a dealer's table) in years.

The bank account that lets me cash checks made out to Astral Trading Company still exists, and the bank sent me a note this week asking whether I realized that it still exists and has money in it. I think I'd like to keep the DBA name active, but I don't use that bank for anything else. My credit union supposedly has business accounts now, maybe I'll transfer the Astral money to an account there.

I think what I'd really like is just to be able to make plans more than a few months out. Seems like the few longer term plans I've made (like the Geek Cruise) have fallen through. It's easy to fall into a mood of 'why bother?'

I started taking extra vitamin D yesterday. I wonder if it is screwing up my brain chemistry: I seem to fall into clinical depression pretty easily. I should probably take some St. John's Wort.

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